how I feel the existence of "god"

As everyone knows what "god" means, i would like to define what i called "undefined superior power" as "god". "God" punishes me yesterday. What happened-i wanted to buy furnitures. i wanted also to meet Neto. Yang wanted to work. Yang didnt want me to travel without eating a diner and a headache from jetlag. I visited the furnitures and I visited Eindhoven, in the end, for vain. Because i should have listened, less to myself. But the result is not too bad: at least the big palm tree and the white clothes cabinet went to my friends. At least they could enjoy them, instead of me. Maybe i already learnt the lesson, the old Chinese wisdom: thinking of others will make yourself a happy person, because "god" sometimes intervenes.