怀旧

一个人，是独立的，虽然不一定是孤独的。

即使有父母，子女，朋友，关系，倘若他的心如果停止跳动，他便不再有父母，子女，朋友和关系。所谓，他的存在需要被注销掉了，连同他的户口。

他所拥有的，残酷一点讲，只有他自己，即便是那毫不起眼的一根汗毛。这，并不代表他需要自私或者有理由自私。只是，他无论伟大或者渺小，他只有自己是最终的依靠。

而，亲情，友情，爱情的意义在于让独立的个体不容易孤独，灵魂不容易空虚。这些情感都是爱，区分的意义在于让人不混淆，能爱得更好，更分明， 灵魂不容易被玷污，因为爱是一种太复杂，太难把握的东西。

假如，

我可以选择，我愿意时刻陪伴着我的一双父母和一个爱人，照顾着一个或几个子女，联络着那一个或几个伙伴，保持着一些关系，邻居，同学，同事，诗友，球伴。身边只需要有一张床，一床冬暖夏凉的被子，一个草籽做的枕头，夏秋冬各两套有领衣服+一套休闲服，周一到六单双日子可以换穿有领的，星期天穿休闲的，一双蓝色休闲鞋，一双黑色皮鞋， 一双拖鞋，一个三星笔记本电脑（外置两个小音箱），一个音乐光盘包，一把梳子，一把牙刷，一个可以打电话，收邮件，照相，录像，录音的手机，几本书。

而且，自己珍重自己。为自己说的话，做的事，想的法负责，不给社会带来可以避免的负担，不给环境带来不必要的污染，不给自己的灵魂增添无谓的负担。

大概，过这样的日子，我将会需要写自己的日记和读别人的传记。

江亭

2007年1月28日星期日 0：36分（1小时）

irrationality

A human being, when attracted by another or indulged in an activity, overreacts to ambiguity in a pessimistic manner and averses to failures or losses, as a result of over-evaluation of the other or the stuff.

Coming back from Maastricht...

It was a busy two-day experience, filled with troubles that I anticipated, but also great teachings I received for my research, and life.

Quoting from Irene, "every crisis is also an opportunity". In fact, in Chinese, a crisis is literally a "risky opportunity". What a wonderful philosophy.
To elaborate, in terms of housing, the first night was almost destroyed by a mistake that the hostel made. Crisis: they put me in a mixed room, and I was late in terms of arrival time which was after 11pm. Opportunity: the problem was eventually solved nicely by me occupying a whole room with 6 beds all for myself.

The second night, Crisis: I had to go back to Tilburg and the consequence was that I waited at 7am in the morning in the train station for 1 hour not knowing the train on saturday did not run before 8. (i did check the schedule for "Saturday", but instead of 7th June, 6th of June was my impression for Saturday, because of the 6, ha, emabarrassing.) Opportunity: I was late and wet when i arrived, but i met Irene in the toilet, and because Monica told me about Irene's coming to share her room when i asked her for help for the housing, i quickly accquaited with Irene and took her into the conference hall and i was happy that i was kind of being useful.

The third night, Crisis: I really had nowhere to stay in and it was too late to take a train. I slept on the floor of the room of Monica's...oh wow, i was freezed. I was so tired and yet, at the beginning, i was trembling for every sec, then i thought of the towels in the bathroom but i really didnt want to have any chance of waking up the others having to turn the light on... I had to in the end, and i carefully made use of the 3 small precious towels for maximizing the warmth they could provide and crawled myself like a hedgehog. Opportunity: Monica and Irene are so nice and I think I am happy to know them more in my life and last but not least--- hehe, you cannot imagin how happy i was last night because i had a warm cover...oh, as if i had been to heaven....

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oh, what an effort taking weekend, yet young and beautiful...