not going ---why?

Usually i overthink, and as usual, it happens today, now: so, i was originally going to see a friend of mine, someone i enjoyed a lot spending time with and want to spend more with. Comparing to Chicago, Amsterdam is no distance from Tilburg; comparing to internet chat, face to face chatting is by all means upgrading. But i cannot go, because of work, also because of his only having time during lunch and breakfast, because of work. And suddenly i ask myself, why is work so important? Usually with this thought, it is enough for me to persist in going instead of staying, but this time, it isn't. Bart Simpson puts it,"if it is too hard, it is not worth trying." For the very first time, i apply this principle, for the more long-run dream i am fighting for. And forgive me, my friend...and do not underestimate the dillema i have...^&^

Ein schoenes Gedichte-by Hesse

Das Lied des Lebens,
Blätter wehen vom Baume,
Lieder vom Lebenstraume,
Wehen spielend dahin.
Vieles ist untergegangen,
Seit wir zuerst sie sangen,
Zärliche melodien,
Sterblich sind auch die Lieder.
Alle verweht der Wind,
Blumen und Schmetterlinge,
Die unvergänglicher Dinge,
Flüchtiges Gleichnis sind.

导师获奖 Congratulations to Jan!

Jan Boone 是我两位导师之一。他从牛津博士毕业已经10年，已经当了好几年的正教授。刚刚听说他获了荷兰科学基金会的VICI奖。五年内将提供给他125万欧元研究经费。可喜可贺。深为他感到自豪！同时告诉自己：努力，努力，再努力！否则枉费了在这两位大家身边学习的机会！

Wholehearted congratulations to Jan for his winning the VICI grant! (1.25m euros ^&^)

雨中

一个人活着，和万万人区分开来的东西大概是灵魂。灵魂很抽象，它又是由同样抽象的精神构成。血肉之躯易朽，精神之躯长留。一个人的精神又是在什么时候显现出来的呢？我认为，非“非常境地”莫属。何谓非常境地，从雨中逆风骑车到接二连三的人生挫折，和各种面对着一时乐诱惑的选择等等。唯有在这种情景下，才有对精神高低的挑战，只有在这种时候，才能在精神上区分出少数人和一般人。你会在雨中逆风骑车时高歌吗？你会在几经挫折后仍看不到曙光的时候还保持微笑和信念吗? 你会在眼看着欲望就能达到最大满足的时候毅然选择去为明天的丰收而无不为例的辛劳吗？你不懈的努力了吗？你忘我的工作了吗？你是为了别人的幸福而奋斗吗？

Haiku written by me in 1997 (high school)

1. Milk for Sale

White fluid in a glass

heat steaming, appetizing,

it is not for me

2.

Fresh water walking

cold as ice in Antartic

moisting my dried throat

3. Blackboard

A stern dark lady

stands quietly in the classroom

clothes turn colorful

4. Truth

Just a plain surface

but never hiding defects

cause you love truth so.

5.

A boy with broken kite

sitting on Green grass land

waiting for the wind

6.

Suddenly fire burns

wet steam kisses little lips

hot snake spreads inside

7.

Fragrance fills the yard

jasmine blossoms in my heart

flying in my dreams

8.

Quietly you come

and touch my hot face gently

still cold in my heart

9.

Down the radio aerial

a slow drop flops on and off

dripping clothes up top